Moving On

I and the rest of my family will be OK as of today no I'm not OK.

Why is life so hard with so many unanswered questions.

How can a women with no job living from family member to family member be capable of taking care of three children (3 and Under)?

Why does or government and society think people deserve to have the free handouts?
do not get me wrong I do understand that some people are down on there luck.

Why does it seem that me as an adoptive parent I have no rights?
We had to pay for about $250 in living expenses, $800 for a lawyer that she never spoke with, and not to mention we had Braden in our custody for one week then had him taken from us.

I will never know her reason I just hope she gives him the life that she knew she could not and the life she knew we could give him.

Why, How, that is the Question

Why did we have the baby that we loved, protected, comforted, etc for one week taken from us?

We will never know the answer to that question and truthfully I probably do not want to know the truth.

I really feel that the last few weeks of my life were a complete lie:

• I want you to be the parents for my child. I can not provide for him the way he deserves
• He will be the only grandchild I do not have to worry about.
• I want him to have a future and I know he will have a chance with you.
• My mind is made up, I'm not going to change my mind.
• Every time I talk to you I'm at ease with my decision./
• I guess I should stop rambling.

I guess when someone dies you at least know they are going to a better place. I pray Braden is going to be OK. I also pray that birth mom will take care of him and change her lifestyle for her children's sake.

Greg and I have picked up the pieces and are trying to move on. We had an awesome day with just the three of us. And I cherish every moment we have as a family.

I realize God has a plan for us and in the long run I truly believe he was protecting us.

Heartbroken.

Just had to do the hardest thing in my life. We were going to adopt a baby boy that we had named Braden. Seen him from the second he was born and loved him for about three weeks before he was born. And, now after a week of having him in our custody Birthmom has decided to parent. He will always be in my heart and I will always pray for him. I realize Landon is only three but for one week he was an awesome big brother. I will post more in the future.

Friday the 13th. Three years ago there were two scared parents bringing their 4 lbs 4 oz baby boy home from the hospital. Words cannot explain how I felt that day. But I will always remember Landons birth parents and gift they gave us.

Hard to believe!

Hard to believe that Landon is three. At this time three years ago we still didn't know that he was born. I thank his birth parents everyday, what an awesome gift.

Landon's Birthday Party

Just had Landon's Third birthday party. His birth day isn't until Tuesday. Where has time went it seems like yesterday we brought him home weighing 4lbs and 4 oz. Love that boy.